Sofia Coppola's "Somewhere" complete theatrical trailer

no words are necessary.

film from newfoundland... FINALLY

well, this sucks.

yesterday i left my family, grabbed my ipod, and aimlessly went on an extremely long walk. i climbed up huge dirt roads, over rolling hills, past a massive cemetary, and down a steep cliff. i ended up at this beach. transatlanticism came on my ipod as i took my shoes off, walked to the edge of the water and stood with my feet in the freezing cold atlantic ocean for seven minutes and fifty five seconds. i've never felt better this entire trip.

then i walked back, the longer way, sat in a rocking chair and looked out at the massive area of land that i had just walked all over. and i felt totally satisfied.

and last night my parents went out to that folk festival so my brothers and i ended up taking a cab to this mall, getting a pizza and seeing dinner for schmucks. steve carell is so funny. paul rudd is so fucking hot.

that's all.

i spend endless hours hating this place, wanting to do everything i can to leave and go back home, but then all of a sudden i'm on the top of this fucking hill at 11 pm, sitting in a rocking chair, and looking at the most vast, quiet, starry sky, and all i can think about is how fucking selfish and ungrateful i am when i have this huge fucking sky in front of me and i do nothing but hate everything around me. so i try to ignore the hate, i try to sit back and stare into the sky, i try to forget how much i really don't like the lonely and empty feelings this place leaves me with, and i try to enjoy the fucking beauty in front of my eyes.

it's hard though. it's so goddamn hard. i still really do want to go home. but i think these starry skies and endless horizons sort of help.

sort of.

newfoundland is so strange. i haven't decided if i like it or not. i hope this gets better. and i hope the things on my mind will be gone soon enough. i'm annoyed.