just an hour ago i was shaking with rage but now sufjan is playing and i am reading through jason lazarus' list of impossible art ideas realizing how infinite our minds and ideas can be and that the world is a big fucking place and i am just one tiny speck in this enormous solar system and sometimes it's okay to feel small because if i were to say that i feel limitless and big and important then i would have nothing to say when i truly feel that way. don't use words too big for their purpose.

i don't know what i'm talking about anymore.