there are way too many times in my life where i feel my stomach twisting into knots and my hands going numb and my brain overreacting from god knows what and where my guts and my core and my heart and my entire being is feeling something that i can't explain. there are so many moments where i want to just hold someone's hand in the dark and spend forever trying to find the right words to explain what's going on inside my mind. trying to pinpoint emotions that i'm consciously aware of but i know cannot be described out loud. my writing has been lacking lately, in fact everything i'm doing has been, but that doesn't mean my mind isn't in overdrive. i promise i'll do something i'm proud of soon. soon. but as for right now, i've realized that sometimes i envy everything that takes up your time because i'd rather be the one keeping you up at night.