i fell in love with you at the foot of a bed. i've loved many other things, and places, and people, and moments, but i'll always remember being basked in a blue glow, naked to the core and glistening in a thin layer of each others sweat, and knowing that this was important and i felt in love. i know you care and i know you will continue to care and i know you've cared this whole time but i just can't get that feeling out of my mind that i'm a millstone wrapped around your neck sometimes, annoying and needy. i try not to be and i have been telling myself to go right to sleep and keep everything out of my mind, but i can't get over that hill. it's too steep and i can't walk it alone. i love you, i do, i really do, but i feel like i care far too much sometimes. i'm trying to look on the bright side of everything and i'm trying to keep calm and collected but i feel too much. i'm always trying to put it into words for you but i can really only say that i feel too much and too often and i'm trying to better myself but please forgive me for now. all i need is some kind words and i promise i'll sleep soft once again.